It all seems to happen at the same time.
It's easy for us to compartmentalize. I like to think I can rest for a while in one area so I can be stronger in another. I took a rather long nap today. I took one yesterday too. I figured it would give me the energy to get ahead on my homework or maybe work out for the first time in a while. I don't know why I thought this. It didn't work this time either. I woke up just as demotivated as I was when I fell asleep. I even found it hard to start writing this post.
What's the deal? Isn't rest supposed to help you work harder? I'm not sure what profound statement is supposed to come out of this. I just know I'm finding it hard to get in a productive groove. Perhaps rest is supposed to be done in days rather than hours. I don't know. I just know that there's a fine line between rest and laziness.
Rest for a few hours and you'll do it again the next day. Do it for a few days and you'll wanna do it every day. Stop working out for a week and it'll go for a month... two months... how about three? What does the Bible say about a little sleep and a little slumber?
I'm trying not to feel guilty. I'm more annoyed than anything. I've tried to be a workaholic in the past but I've never quite succeeded. This is odd, because many of my mentors have been workaholics. They tend to warn me not to work to hard so I don't turn out like them. Nice thought... but I'm not sure that's my bent.
The problem is, there's always more to do. I can see how a person can become a workaholic. It's easy to beat yourself up for not writing one more paper. Because of this, it's hard to tell if you are a workaholic. On the other hand, however, there's also always less to do as well. It doesn't take much to tip the scale so that you default to procrastination.
I've tasted both extremes, and it's been easy to fall into the latter category this week with the lack of homework that's due. Again... I'm not sure what my point in all this is... I guess I just needed to confess that I can be a bum sometimes. Perhaps I'll force myself to do some push-ups tonight... well, maybe tomorrow...